Tee c/o Loved Mama & Little
Most little girls play with baby dolls and pretend to be little mamas, daydreaming about their wedding day and all the babies they’ll have. I was definitely a girly girl who loved to play dress up and rock my baby dolls in their cradle. But I do not ever remember planning out my wedding or wanting kids. Frankly kids intimidated me and I was one. Being one of the youngest cousins, with a few a year younger than me, I didn’t really have experience being around babies. The kids I did encounter were horrifying in my eyes. This feeling lasted well into high school & my college years. Babies were not in the cards for me. I wasn’t meant to be a mom.
Fast forward to my late 20’s and my friends were getting pregnant and popping out babies. But it wasn’t until one of my friends gave birth to the CUTEST little baby boy that I started feeling differently about having babies. Seeing him jump-started the internal clock and set it on supercharge. I immediately talked to my now husband and declared I wanted a baby! Like now! LOL Nothing had really changed…Kids still scared me, but I figured this would be my kid which would make it a little less scary and a lot more lovable. (Ironically the same baby that convinced me to have kids had the same horrible colic my first child had also.)
Maybe I didn’t realize it when I was younger, but when I first held my baby girl in my arms almost 4 years ago, I knew I was meant to be HER mom. Being a mother is seriously the hardest, yet rewarding, non-paying job I’ve ever had. It’s taught me how strong I really am and how un-scary kids really are (most of them). They push me to my limits, but smother me with a lot of kisses. They’ve sleep-deprived me, but gave me the best cuddles. They’ve upset me beyond belief, but make me laugh harder than ever before. So yea…I think I was meant to be a mom…THEIR mom.